Tag: anxiety

  • Bell Let’s Talk day and Mental Illness

    On any given day you might think I’m doing just fine by looking at my outside — but inside, I’m screaming.

  • Embracing Quitting

    No one is every any good at anything until they practice, yet I’m the worst sort of drill sergeant in my own head, screaming at me, calling me a maggot, because I wasn’t perfect the first time — or because I THOUGHT about quitting. Gods know how I ever got to a point where I…

  • The Epic Battle between my Delusions of Grandeur and my Crippling Self-Doubt, part two million and sixty-five

    If you’re anything like me you know exactly what this is like. Half your brain goes “You could totally model for Addition Elle/write for xoJane/dance burlesque and dominate the scene because you are a queen/maybe do something adult with your life like trying to fix your massive piles of debt!” and the other half goes…

  • Deadlines and me

    I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by. –Douglas Adams I had several deadlines this month, and I think I missed half of them. I’m not entirely sure, as I never wrote them down in my own calendar, but I did announce them to other people. That was probably…

  • Mental Breakdowns, Medication, and Optimism

    I keep questioning myself on how open and honest I should be on my blog. Sometimes I think I should share everything, hold nothing back, and just be myself. Other times I think I should keep as much private as possible — only show the good sides, only have positive, uplifting things to say. I’ll…

  • #BellLetsTalk and ending the silence around Mental Illness

    Today there’s a campaign going from Bell, one of Canada’s mobile providers. For every tweet with the hashtag #BellLetsTalk, they’ll donate 5 cents to funding mental health initiatives across Canada. (They’re also donating for each text or call their customers make, and for every share of the Bell Let’s Talk image.) You can read more…

  • I am the Emperor of Fabulous (or, Surviving Survival Mode)

    Recently I posted about how my life has pretty much gone down the tubes since the start of the year. Dealing with things like that — with events that shatter your world — can lock your body and brain into survival mode. In survival mode, there’s no philosophy. There’s no art, no music-making, no creativity.…

  • 2013, so far

    TRIGGER WARNING: depression, suicide, self-harm, university and student loan bullshit, anxiety This has not been a good year. I’m not wallowing in drama; I’m stating a fact. This year started out with a week of depression, anxiety attacks, and severe suicidal thoughts. It’s gotten a bit better, but I’ve still be battling the mother of…

  • “Beauty Regimen”

    I hate that term. Beauty regimen. I know where it [ostensibly] comes from: the use of ‘beauty’ products in a routine; on a daily basis. (This, of course, isn’t a precise use of the word regimen, which specifically refers to (among other things) a routine that contributes to one’s health. Health, as you know, is not…

  • Bullying and Suicide — Justice for Amanda Todd

    Trigger warning. A teenager local to me committed suicide this week. She’d been bullied and stalked and harassed for a few years, and it got to be too much to take. All over one innocuous action, what some may deem a screw-up, that just happened to happen on the internet. You know, kids screw up.…