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Celebrate Love. All kinds of love.
This was originally posted on my Medium profile on February 14, 2017. I used to hate Valentine’s Day with an all-consuming passion. Before that, I adored it. In my childhood, Valentine’s Day was great. It was my half-birthday (approximately 6 months from my actual birthday) so my parents (well, mom mostly) made a big deal…
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notes on gabapentin, day 6
ok, so 6 days of taking my new meds. here are some notes on it. it works. i mean, it definitely stops my twitching when i’m awake. however i’ve noticed, now my twitching has stopped, that i also have nerve pain in my extremities. i just never noticed it before because i was always either…
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This is not for you: Productivity and Chronic Illness
This was originally posted on my Medium profile on February 7th, 2017. I read a lot of articles on productivity and improving one’s creativity and making life better. How to do better, be better, accomplish more, feel satisfied with my life, not feel like such a fucking failure all the time. I read these articles…
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Not everything is for you: kids and Deadpool
This was originally posted on my Medium profile on February 17th, 2016. I suppose it was inevitable. People have taken their kids to see Deadpool…and then complained it wasn’t appropriate for kids. Look. I am the first person to say that the MPAA ratings are bullshit and usually far too puritanical. I believe parents know…
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My Failed Relationship with Toe Socks
This post was originally published on my Medium profile on January 21st, 2016. Since I was 12 I’ve been in love with toe socks. They’d become the symbol for the quirky, cute, intelligent girl who didn’t quite fit in but was still gorgeous according to conventional standards of beauty. They appeared in the glossy spreads…
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new meds
content warning: emetophobia got my gabapentin today. trying it tonight. also sleeping on the recliner tonight, because my neck won’t stop hurting. i don’t know what’s up with it. it hasn’t hurt this much since the last time i got whiplash. which was…on a bumper car i think. (yeah, bumper cars give whiplash. just in…
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body betrayal
living with chronic illness and disability is living with a body that is constantly betraying you. i only speak from my own experience, which is that of someone who went from relatively healthy with a few weird but livable issues, to disabled, in constant pain, always fighting the truth of my own flesh. because of…
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Finding Back the Glue
This post was originally posted on my Medium profile on January 13, 2016. Sometimes I imagine myself as a table, holding a mug. The mug is my sanity, and the table is my life, it’s me, it’s the sum total of experiences and memories and everything that makes me, me. The table has three uneven…
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Hope in the face of numbness
This post was originally published on my Medium profile on January 6, 2016. My left pinky has become permanently numb. I don’t know when this started. Every day I press it, hard, to the palm of my hand, in the hopes that that feeling, that pins and needles, that signal to my brain that something…