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Dissociation
Dissociating to a certain extent can help me keep the pain at bay until I can deal with it, in small pieces.
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Post a day
You may have noticed that since the 9th I’ve been posting every day. This has been on purpose and it has been difficult to keep up. I’m making a commitment to post here every day. At the moment, this means I’m likely going to be scheduling weekend posts, as my schedule means I’m away from…
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The Buzzing
Electronic whines drive me nuts. When I hear one, I must hunt it down at its source, eradicate it.
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Sinterklaasfeest and a patchwork cultural heritage
The comforting parts of my Dutch cultural heritage that I like to wrap myself in when I’m feeling homesick are like a patchwork quilt that’s missing half the patches. Only so much can be safety pinned on by visiting the Holland Shop, or going through my Oma’s things.
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Weekend Sleep Schedule Success
Something I have to deal with on the weekends is my sleep schedule going to hell and gone. My fiance works nights and I, with no schedule set by an outside force, prefer to work days. Ideally I get up at 6am and head to bed at 9 or 9:30pm. At home, I have no…
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In which I yell into a microphone and shake like a leaf.
[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u3VNWpTBj8k&w=560&h=315] This is me at the VanSlam on Monday night. I haven’t watched the video and probably won’t. I have issues with watching myself on video and am not in the right headspace to do so today or maybe ever. But, you know, if you wanted to see me perform “Blood Candle”…there you go. Now,…
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How not to be a dick to your friend/loved one/relative with eating disorders
Content warning: disordered eating, fatphobia, misogynistic language, description of child abuse Note: this is written based on my own personal experience with relatives, friends, loved ones, and my eating disorders. Other people may have different eating disorders and different experiences, and my post is in now way trying to speak for them. It’s just me…
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Sept 12: Shadow. #fmsphotoaday
Sept 12: Shadow. #fmsphotoaday, a photo by Katje van Loon on Flickr.
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Studying Stones
Today’s prompt for the FMS Photo a Day was “Sweet.” My lunch was sweet. Today has a hint of bitter to it. Three years ago in August, my Oma died, just shy of her 93rd birthday. Today she would have been 96. And for some reason today it’s hitting me hard. The first year was…